♥ Eternal Separation

Friday, August 28, 2009

Love is just like quicksand.
Leave it within your fingers and there it stays.
Clutch it if you can and it darts away.

I still miss the memories now. but I've let go.
and I find it funny when people say that love is useless.

Not exactly. In a way or another.
How do you compare the euphoria you experience,
when you get all A1, and you get a high salary job and yet you're alone at home.
And, when you're poor. But you have a loved one beside you.

The feeling is different, for all you know.
Money isn't everything. Love isn't everything either.
But at some point in life you'll need someone there.

Cos' no matter how strong you are,
you can still be troubled by matters of the heart.
I'm sure a lot of people agree. Because they've been through it.

Unlike you. Insensitive and rude. Uncaring and preceded.
It's time you consider not to be a slave of the government and your boss.
Working day and night just for money and promotions.

Is that your "so-called" life motive?
Do you find it happy when you return to a home alone?
You find that something is already missing from the start.

And in life, I find, but to no avail, and I fail,
to find that special someone to be by my side.

Some say it's effortless. Yet some say you need to put in effort.
Some say it's natural. Yet you still have to consider fate.
Some say it's spontaneous, but nonchalant people ends up being single.

I think that you really need to work hard for what you want.
In the end, what matters most is what you've put in, not yourself or whoever.
And I know, we know, he knows that I've/We've tried our best.

Trying to save a relationship isn't easy, everyone knows that.
It's a wrong decision I've made in the past, I have to account for that.
And that's the reason why, I tried.

The operational words here are, "I tried".
Trying guarantees no success or failure. It could go either way.
And seemingly it's fated that my life is to go another way.
The only way is to let go and live on with the memories.

People have been saying, doubting my ability to live on.
I doubted myself too. But, too, I find it really hard to die.
It's funny why people die so easily and suddenly.
And in contrary how tardy I was facing death in the face.

Maybe it's a new chance for me.
I know wherever, over the edges of the horizon,
there's that special someone. Who can morph this nightmare of mine.
Whether in the end I found him or not,
it's all meant to be.

So, no rush. But.
Some people keep asking me whether I believe in astrology.

Here's the answer:
Yes I do. Fuck those who doesn't.
Astrology plays a part in you. Whoever you are.
Your personality, your traits, even your physical appearances.
Is totally or spatially linked. To astrology.
I believe. It's all in the stars, right?
Can't you see that I'm a typical Scorpio?

Use your brains.

Baelia has walked away at 6:35 AM