♥ Eternal Separation

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Is this how true love feels like?

Sweet and bitter.
Happy and miserable.
Hesitant and yet decisive.

All of life's clues points towards you.
But you were my past. It's over.
Is there such thing as rekindled love?
Back to the open arms, to the love that once to be there?

And now I realise.
This love is still deep intact after a long, long time.

You still care for me don't you?

All those facebook quizzes.
The yagas who told me.
M T S. Name of him who dawns upon my life.
Max Tiv Samnang? So exact? Are you sure?
Cancer-Scorpio = sparks fly? Is this so?

Where do broken hearts go?
Can we find our way home?
Will I choose to come back?
Can I even do that?

Should I give in?
Are you really the one?
I'm not afraid to say, we click so well.
I feel shy yet happy around you.
Really happy. No words can describe it.
I feel secured too.

Rmbr that very day you brought me to a forest?
Do you still rmbr what you told me?
I remembered very clearly.
"Don't be scared. I'll protect you."

Ever having a sense of loveless misery?
Do you know how I felt when you didn't go up the same bus as me?
Do you know why I chose to alight at next stop and WALK back to find you?
Do you believe in fate, even?
I thought you're gone. But I trusted my heart.
And you're still there. And we ended up taking the same bus.
When I came behind you. Gasping for air because I ran all the way to find you back.
Do you know how happy I was to see you're still there?
I feel as though I'm the luckiest girl on earth.

But memories just came swamping me...
Maybe I just can't FORGET them. Sweetly filled with haunts of you..
I've been lying to myself all along. No, I never did forget you.
Dreams don't just turn to gold.

And thank god. For the moment I cried.
You leaned on my shoulder. I could feel you.
It's almost as real. It's dejavu.
I know. Now I know, that my daydreams aren't fictional.
It came true. Just like how I imagined.
And I was really happy.
Really was.

Even though you ignored me because I smoked.
I know you care. And for that I promise I will quit.

I don't believe. But all the clues in life pointed to you and you alone.
And now. From a stubborn girl, it has changed and convinced me.
Is it too late? Can I go back in time?

Is this really meant to be?
Everyone tells me to follow my heart.
But.. There's no easy way. I just can't run away.

I no longer feel obliged towards you.
No longer irritated. Because maybe I've changed.
And I believe that we make a good match. Seriously.
It all is written in the stars.

If reality is the opposite.
We won't be here. It must be something else.
I miss you desperately..

But I'm still not going back to you.
What's yours will be yours eventually.
There's no rush. I'll go against fate.
But that doesn't mean I have no feelings for you.
Seems like I made the right choice, looking you in the eyes.
So.. electrifyingly beautiful. I like your smile. Your eyes too.
You made me feel secured everytime I walk beside you.
If this is true, I'll eventually go back to you.
No rush, this is fate, not a game.

You still care for me.

Thank god that I've been cursed with a sweet romance.
If this is just my own delusion,
let me be in it forever.

Baelia has walked away at 5:53 AM